Damn, it's been a crap week

I'm going to attempt to self-learn Japanese. One benefit of being an anime nut is that you pick up a lot of words here and there. Not to mention considering for the past six months, I've almost been saturating myself in Japanese media - anime, games, music.

It's been three weeks since I've signed up and STILL not connected to the internet. Grr. Very angry, since I now have a rather large backlog of stuff I have to download: mainly anime, but also my sci-fi shows, consisting of Battlestar Galactica, Stargate Atlantis and SG-1. At least I managed to get some sort of sci-fi fix last night, when they aired a season 8 ep of SG-1 which introduces a character seen in the first few eps of SG-1 season 9.

It really hurts not having internet. I really wish I didn't have such domineering, controlling parents. They say for me to act my age, but it's rather hard to do so when they don't treat me the way I feel a 19 year old should be treated. For gods' sake, they still lock up my computer! If that isn't a sign they still see me as a child, then I don't know what is. They control almost all of my electronic entertainment (I have mentioned before, they have a fondness for confiscating my gaming consoles), and I can only thank my foresight that I got a PSP, enabling me to watch anime when I want. However, having now lost the secret key I had to the computer room, I have to find another way to keep extra anime to load onto my PSP. What's even worse is that to procure another one, I need to persuade my parents to open up the computer room before they go to work so I can then go off to the city and get another one (or three - two for use and one for future reference. I really should have gone and gotten another one or two while I had my current extra key).

Operation Independence seems to be sputtering to a rather unimpressive stop as my parents start buying their usual stuff again (damn, groceries are expensive, and I'm already needing money) - my mum seems to love buying ice cream, chips and chocolates. She doesn't seem to care that I keep telling her to stop buying them, she'd stop for a week or two and then start buying again. It's just stupid, when I tell her not to buy them, she claims it's for other members of the family who might want it, and that if I don't want to eat it, then I shouldn't, but it isn't simple as that. Damn it, she should know that my brother and I are the ones who eat lots of the sweet fattening stuff! And yet she continues to buy them, despite our objections. I should start sticking to my diet more, but it's hard, since they take time to cook, I'm a novice at cooking, and I don't know where everything in the kitchen is. Still, I want to learn how to cook, and then hopefully, I can be back on the road to a thin figure, with culinary skills to boot.

This leads to the ultimate goal of Operation Indepence: to move out and start living on my own. I really need to find a more regular job that will earn me more money than $150 a week. I was thinking that, by the end of the year, I could move out and live with some other people in a house. Still, rent'd kill me, being $120 a week for an inner city place. I know it's a good price, but it really is rather expensive for my budget. As of the time now, it is really getting unpleasant to say the most living at home, where I'm bored, can't do much that I want to do, and the parents focus on studying until I drop. Overstudying is not good, I have a nice pattern established, now please don't interfere with it. As soon as I have some more money stashed away, say $1000 or so credit on my credit card, perhaps I'll get a new laptop on some sort of rental plan, that way I can still do stuff while connected to the internet and continue with my downloading. And the parents can't touch it because I'm paying for it. And I need to get a different job so they counter that by simply stopping me working at the shop in Pennington.

Ahh, man ... if only I could enjoy this semester as much as I did the last ... I'd enjoy it even more thanks to the really ncie timetable - mondays off, nothing until midday tuesdays, wednesdays 10-12pm and then a prac every second wednesday, prac on thursdays from 10-1, and then simply a straight run from 9-2 on fridays. As opposed to a straight 8 hour run on monday from 9-5, tuesday 8-10 and then 1-5 prac for four weeks at the beginning of the semester, 9-12 prac on wednesday and then either 2-5 prac or a 5-6 tute, every thurs 12-2, every other one having a 9-12 prac, and finally, a 5 hour run on friday from 9-2. Much, much nicer.